Repressed Emotions
It’s scary to see the damage of repressed emotions. In the last month, I came to the realisation that much of the problems in my relationship with my father were because of the events around my parents’ divorce. And until that time, I never believed it had an effect on me!
So sad. That’s fifteen years of putting up continual barriers against my dad, hurting him, and punishing him; much of it without really realising what was actually happening.
But last Friday, I picked up the phone, and called him after walking out without even a goodbye just over a year ago. And it was a good small step towards repairing the rift between us. Conversation is still difficult, ant it will probably take a very long time to have a real father–daughter relationship given how long it’s been without one at all.
By the power and grace of God, I know the damage can be undone. And maybe one day if I ever get married, he’ll be able to give me away. That will be another dream to come true to add to my continually growing list!